Today is better. I've felt at peace. We haven't made any final decisions about the treatment plans and have actually avoided it today (deciding to get standard treatment or try a few clinical trials). We were going in circles before and just need a break. After two weeks of hell, we needed some normalcy. So today we celebrated our Christmas (which we missed out on with Jacob being in the hospital). We had our Christmas Eve last night and enjoyed watching "Christmas Vacation", eating cookies, and just being together. This morning the kids awoke to presents under the tree and we have spent the day together; watching movies and playing with toys. It felt...well...normal. I have my moments, of course, but overall it has been a wonderful day.
Jacob is thriving being at home. He's had a blast playing with his new toys and being back among his brother and sister. You could hardly tell that this boy had a very intensive surgery not even two weeks ago. He is in his element.
As we ring in a new year tonight I can only breathe a sigh of relief. 2010 was a HARD year. I am glad to be entering a new one. I know that this year will be one of trial and struggles, but I pray that we end 2011 with much better news than 2010 brought. I'm ready for a new year!