"Does he know?"
If they didn't say it out loud, you could see the question in their eyes. It must be similar to the question people want to ask after a suicide "How did they do it?"
Some people told me that he needed to know, others were adamant that he shouldn't know. The fact is, there is no right way.
I felt around. I saw that he got nervous when I talked about certain things so I backed off. I never told him that he was dying.
Because of that he was able to live while dying. After all, are you really dying if you don't know it?
I assume the soul knows. We are all born with a wise soul, it's our minds that are immature. Deep down, inside of us, we all know right from wrong. We all feel things that we don't see. And we all know things that we aren't told. I think his soul knew that his body was towards the end of it's journey. That it was almost time to go home.
I didn't need to prepare him for the end of this journey and the beginning of the next. There is no way to prepare yourself for such greatness. There is no map or guidebook on how to die. No instructions.
He knew the way.
I admire you greatly. God bless.
ReplyDeleteSending love and sharing tears. The way to normalcy is new, now. And normal will never be what it was before. But it can be very good. Living, loving and laughing all honor Jacob. My prayers are with you still. Hug your mother for me, please.
ReplyDeleteI think Jacob was wiser than so many of us in so many ways... he left a legacy of love and courage. (((Hugs & Prayers)))
ReplyDeleteGod Bless you and your family! You are very wise yourself Elizabeth with the words you just wrote about your dear son Jacob.
ReplyDeleteLisa E.
I agree with the way you handled this. I always see someone as they are living even if the drs. say they are dying no one know, but God. God is the god of the living. Blessing Elizabeth to you and your family. I continue to pray for you and your family.
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