Jacob is feeling good today. He perks right up when we arrive home and gets right back into the groove of things. 9 chemo sessions down, 11 more to go. The next two weeks will be once weekly out-patient treatments and our next overnight stay (4 days, actually) will be over the Easter weekend. Yes, Jacob not only missed Christmas at home but now Easter. It sounds like the hospital will have some activities and we will tell the Easter Bunny to wait until we get home to pay us a visit.
This stay at the hospital was an emotional one for me. I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because I was tired upon arriving due to the fact that I was out late the night before with Joe at the ER because he had a crayon piece stuck up his nose.
Maybe it's because when we arrived at our room in the hospital our roommate was a baby (around 9-10 months old) and was basically alone for his whole stay besides a 2 hour visit from his family. This baby played in the crib by himself and drank his bottle and went to sleep alone. He was beyond good for the 24 hours we were there...too good...as though he is used to being alone. It was heartbreaking.
It could be that when I went to get lunch there was an ambulance crew wheeling in an elderly woman who reminded me so much of my Grandma that I started crying while walking to the cafeteria.
Or realizing how traumatizing these hospital wards can be. It reminds me of a wounded soldiers unit - these kids are fighting for their lives and watching them is like watching the walking wounded. Their battle scars are present for all to see. It's a place where these kids shouldn't have to be. I had to hold back tears in the playroom last night because while the kids were having fun the war was all too real in that room.
On a happy note, Jacob's ECHO looks good. We are back home. The weather is warming up. For those I am thankful.
Wow, what a horrible week! I hope you get some time for you, a nice hot bath, some sleep to recharge yourself. Take care!
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